This was not an easy week for me. The stress at work has continued to build. I can feel the pressure of so many deadlines crushing down upon me.
Then there’s the sixth anniversary of my dad’s death. I’ve written about it many times before in other blogs, so I won’t go into detail now, except to explain to new readers that Dad was mentally ill, his meds were off, and he drove himself into a lake. In January. He went missing on January 14th and we didn’t find him and pull him and the truck out until the morning of the 16th.
So…yeah. Tough week here.
I faltered a little bit on Friday night–but I held strong on my choices the remainder of the week.
One thing I did let slide is my exercise. I just didn’t have the time or energy for it. I’ve fought the stress, fatigue, and headaches all week–I didn’t have it in me to make time for exercise. It was all I could do to stay focused on not making poor food choices and sabotaging myself.
So, if you are following along, here are the stats:
In the last 7 weeks I’ve lost 13.2 lbs total. If you count my high weight during Thanksgiving when I creeped back across the dreaded 300 lb mark to 301, then I’ve lost 15.7 lbs.
From November 29th to December 27th I only lost 4.9 lbs. And while I say “only” I DO count that as a huge victory because I halted the weightgain and began a trend of losing during those four weeks of the holiday season. I may have only averaged 1.225 lbs lost each week during this time, but I proved to myself that I can enjoy the holidays and still lose a modest amount of weight. In the three weeks since then I’ve uped that average weightloss to 2.76 lbs per week–and I’ve accomplished this during one of the most stressful times of the year at my job.
Not to mention an emotionally difficult time of the year for me, personally.
Earlier this week, I also took my measurements and found that I had lost a little over 5 inches overall from my waist, hips, thighs, and biceps.
I’m happy with that. And determined to continue to build upon that progress–both on the scale and off.
If it often seems that I’m repeating myself in these entries, its because I need to remind myself of these things to keep my head straight. I can’t allow myself to forget what I’ve accomplished so far and how I’ve accomplished it–because when I do, that’s when I allow myself to slip back into old, unhealthy habits–the habits that have gotten me over the 300 lb mark time and time again.
The goal this year is to get me UNDER the 200 lb mark and never allow myself to cross that line again. This is the year to make the changes stick. And no one can do it for me. I have to be the one to do it, because as the saying goes, “If it is to be, it is up to me.”